It have been so long since i last update my blog. Anyways today i'm feeling really down. :(

Since i already met JYJ coming to Singapore last year at the airport, all that's left is to met Homin. Then it would be close to perfect. (It will only be perfect if all 5 of them walk out of the airport together xD)

So i and Mama(Mahirah) and her little sister met at the Changi airport mrt station and go to terminal 2 together. I wanted to eat first so we went to Burger King for a take away. We sit at the area which infos says they will materialize there at "Terminal 2 ke644". i ate like a horse (ofcourse i share my food) and went for a patrol if it gets too crowded.

After eating we fast-walk towards the area where fans already started to wait. Seriously, Cassies are SWAG for qeueing in a straight line waiting for TVXQ. Patiently and with discipline *proud*. We join in too and i started to feel nervous. I MUST LOOK PRETTY TO CATCH CHANGMIN'S ATTENTION *irrational mode on*

we waited and saw the TVXQ staffs and dancer arrive... but NO HoMin.

That is when this malay cassie informs us the reality we failed to see: "They probably wont be here. Look, no bodyguards." It's true, where are the bodyguards and barriers? everyone started to be blurr sotong and breaks apart. We went around to ask for informations from the airport staffs.

I even gives detailed description: "Very tall and handsome superstars" (literally lol) and even shows my Changmin batch if they see him or not. But grr... they wont even leak useful infos. We learned that there would be 2 options: A) They went through the CIP/VIP room, B) They came in late.

Then i dont know how but we ended up looking through the glass into the departure room. We knock onto the glass screen to catch the people's attention inside. True enough we manage to make this kawaii girl whom we call "Taemin" to look up. We cheered in joy and show her a TVXQ banner, followed by body languages to ask whether she've seen them or not.

The poor girl looks blurr sotong. So this malay cassie said: "I think she dont understands english. Someone go and write TVXQ in chinese!! Paper! Paper!". So this chinese cassie took a paper and write TVXQ in chinese and showed "Taemin", still figuring out what exactly we are trying to talk about. The malay cassie points at the paper and said out loud "TOOOOONNNGGG VVFFFFAAAANNNG XIIIIIEEEENNN QIIIIIIEEE~ Hey, is this glass soundproof?" making us laugh.

We waited for "Taemin" and now her mother (she saw us and joins in the strange conversation) to give some response, but they walk away from us instead. Most of us starts knocking onto the glass to call them back wailing "NOO~!!!" while the malay cassie yelled "Oi, Woman! Come back!!!" and makes us laugh like crazy again. But i think they understood and was searching for HoMin for us since they came back again... but empty handed of course. (like they will drag HoMin with them pffft!)

Cassiopeia is indeed a fandom of waiting. We are adapted to waiting that we kept on trying to grab people's attention to help us from like 1pm to 3pm, which is 15 minutes before they take off to korea again.

It's really disappointing since i failed my mission (???). Hope they will return to Singapore again next year, SHIM CHANGMIN HAVE NOT MEET ME YET.

Labels: dbsk, fira

It have been so hard on us TVXQ fans for the past 2 yrs (wow~ seriously???) but things are getting a lil' bit lighter now that JYJ is active now; having world tours for their 1st album as sub-groups, updates from their twitter accounts (XD) and Yoochun's hit drama 'SungKyungKwan Scandal'.

But hey, it's just 3/5 of the success in music career. What happened to the other 2/5?

Before i starts anything, i wanted to pour out my feelings first. To me, TVXQ and Cassiopeia are like my second family. We've gone through ups and downs together, keeping the faith for us all. But seeing us all having fanwars and falling apart because of this lawsuits at the beginning? It's really breaking my heart, it's like watching a beautiful family getting divorced.

And recently there's a heated fight about Yunjae. Some antis would hurt other fans(which is a Cassiopeia like her too) with such insulting words because of it.
For example(but it's true): a fan let Jaejoong autographed on a Yunjae picture. Yunjae-anti fans will say something like 'It's awkward, you're depressing them.', 'He does not like it' and worst 'You're crazy fan'.

We all know that Jaejoong is a very honest person and if he dont like it, he'll say it (or show with his expression or whatever). But he smiled in everything Yunjae-related, he even hand-picked the yunjae picture only to sign on while ignoring the others(but not in 'that' way). Does this show any signs that he's unhappy about it?

NO.

Seriously, what's wrong with anything Yunho/Changmin-related??? Arent they their bandmates too??? Why? Do you hate them already???

I'm truly happy that JYJ is finally able to soar up after all the hardships. But my attention is more to HoMin now, since they've almost on hiatus. I'm felt pity on them to receive these from their own fans. They DONT deserve these.

Last friday, we break fast at my grandparents house. which is my super angry (sometimes annoying) granny. i dont like her much though, but we're still fine. i mean she's old and finally kind to me since i'm already grown up.

well whatever.

she prepared so many foods i dont think i could eat them all. i mean so MUCH! T_T (but she's a great cook^^ cant deny that). i have to move around and set the table or she'll might nag >.>


Vanilla Latte flavour. Bought it at 7-11

when the Maghrib prayer starts we eat^^ my brother got scold by my grandma cause they wont stop fooling around (well, serve them right kekeke...)
My grandma told me that i'm too skinny and i should eat more =_=" i know i'm skinny and i'm slightly a lil' bit skinnier right now. but i'm not THAT too skinny like a skeleton!!! DX. she told me to get fat =_="


i dont understand why she thinks i should get round and fat like her and my aunts and my father =_=



so we eat our dinner (it's delicious) and my grandma was trying to force feed me to eat more when i'm already completely full. i told her i cant and she's like "I know you've been diet eating. you shouldn't do that!" and i was like "HECK! I never on diet! why should i be on diet?!" (i cant resist food and Changmin taught me to appreciate them^^)

so we eat and joke and be a lil' sarcastic blablabla. i like one of my convo with grandma. she always thought that i never wash my bedsheets and all and she says:

Grandma: blablablabla.... you better change the bedsheets blablabla.... got it?
Me: *busy eating* uhh..what?
Grandma: Your bedsheet
Me: yeah?
Grandma: Did you change them every month?
Me: Of course. Why are you asking such things?
Grandma: ...*speechless*
Mom: Pfffft....!!!

Oh God, i talk like a smartass XD
I credits Shim Changmin for giving me the confidence to be witty and have sarcastic remarks.


LMAO at Ali XD

after eating and taking selca pics. i felt sleepy (effect after eating) and tale a long nap. woke up at around 10/11 when dad(who might have finally arrives when i'm sleeping) say we're going back home.

sometimes my grandma can be okay and sometimes she can be very annoying


I got a $5 note :D

#@%$%#%$#%^#%$#%$^%#%$#%#&^#%%$@%!!!!!!!

Argh! those bitches are so fuckin' irritating i wanna BURN them! D8<<<<
if you're wondering whoever these people are then it ********* and ********(yes, i hate u so fuckin much. FULL STOP.)

i just dont understand why is *** my friend at the first place? like she was a lil' bit okay at first but now she so frigging irritating i wanna punch her eyes.

why am i so mad? Lemme tell you why:

During ******* just now. i was opening my thumbdrive and open up changmin's wallpaper. they're not a fan, so just stfu and fuck off. i dont even want u to be their fan with an attitude like that.

BUT NOOOO~ THEY NEVER LOVED THEIR DEAR MOUTH AND BODY.

they insulted ME and MAH BOYS till the end, INFRONT of everyone. what their problem anyways?! do they really want me to slap their bitchy face hard to understand what i said? Hello~ am i talking alien language here? Pfffft-go rot in hell.

like do i have to tell them "Stop it! you're hurting my feelings i wanted to cry~ uwahhh!!!" and cry on the spot? what is their IQ anyways? probably got negatives (heck yeah that's true)

that reminds me when *** hurt my feelings by saying an old man is my Max and teases me non-stop even though i warned her. then i burst out and screamed at her and cried like a weakling (i mean come on, wont you feel angry and sad when people say bad things to those ppl u loved?). and you know what she did to apologize to me?


Giving me a chewing gum.



a friggin' chewing gum.



WHAT am i?! a KID? a kid who can easy forgive people over a chewing gum?!!! HECK i'm alot more older than u so grow up & learn how to apologize!!! D:< style="font-weight: bold;" size="5">DEAD LMAO kekeke....

God, it have been ages since i last post an entry here >.>

anyways i have bangs already X3. No more mature looking but cutesy Fira :D


Forget bout that. Remember my old "Bus 359" Crush, the stranger whom i fell for? Heck yea i met him again, after a fuckin' long year.

I gave up on him since i no longer see him riding the bus. After that i somehow ended up being Changmin's devoted wife (w/ lots of other scandals ;D) Dont worry im more than happy^^

But ever since he appeared again in my life i just cant stop thinking bout him!

I remembered sitting at my usual seat and was about to take a nap as soon as i sat on it when the other stop makes me wide awake the whole journey. He still have the same hairstyle, only that he wore an office clothes now.

Our eyes fuckin' MET each other that moment.

Well i try to play hard to catch so i ignores him after that and tried to sleep again. And what happened next lift me up into the stars~ Of all the many seats and pretty girls(but i still admits i'm cute too..w/o my school uniform)people behind me, he walks up and sat next to me. fuckin' NEXT to me.

what are ya gonna say?



X3

“I wanted to ask (someone).
Why I was lost in the woods…
Why I followed such difficult love…
Why I could not find such happiness in my life
Now I know..
That I’m happy to have..
Someone who understands me..
and cares about me… Happy Birthday 0602.”

— Jaejoong

Post on his old Cyworld during his trainee days. He delete it as soon as he post it. Lucky a fan found it first XD

Who do think that person is? *grins*
*Crazy fangirl mod on*